Completely burned out, not thinking straight anymore,15 hour work days
Not being able to sleep, trauma brain on constant signal, always afraid
Always waiting for the next shoe to drop, and then it comes: The next wave, on autopilot
Guilty for not doing more, loyal while slowly vanishing, soothing with meds, sometimes alc
But nothing works anymore, controlling the uncontrollable, breaking down, but no one sees
Losing the battle, too many battles against Covid, having been changed forever
Not knowing what “normal” feels like anymore, exhausted beyond belief
Feeling despair, on a sinking ship, nearly two years of complex trauma, the body, the brain will never be the same
Burn out beyond belief, How long, God,
…how long?
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