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To anyone who has grown up in a narcissistic system, who got injured by a narcissistic partner or who suffered any other kind of abuse or neglect: You deserve safety You deserve respect You deserve privacy You deserve that your basic needs are being met You deserve compassion You deserve tenderness You deserve the rightContinue reading “You Deserve…”

“I have done my best today -and the rest, I forgive”… So much has come at me today, so many tasks, challenges, people… I have met everything as best I could, and what I have missed – I forgive… I let my feelings come and honor them the best I am able, and those thatContinue reading “I have done well…”

She did not have a mattress, Only the lower part – and that was wood. It was cold in the house But thankfully they had a roof – and water. Born in 1940, she had grown up with little. And now there was nothing in the fridge And her son had Covid, sleeping in theContinue reading “A different Manger…”

“I did not know I need safety” Many people are experiencing multiple losses in their families. Others are living in traumatic circumstances, so used to abuse, devaluation and manipulation, that safety, vulnerability or intimacy are not something they know. As our culture and world are going through more than two years of complex trauma, theContinue reading ““The Word is so dark right now””

A poem for the new week: No matter what – love yourself! Sometimes what looks terrible can actually become a new opportunity… Or what seems the end of the world becomes the beginning of a new way of living… When we are in these transition times grieving the known that has come to an endContinue reading “No Matter What – Love Yourself”

Completely burned out, not thinking straight anymore,15 hour work days Not being able to sleep, trauma brain on constant signal, always afraid Always waiting for the next shoe to drop, and then it comes: The next wave, on autopilot Guilty for not doing more, loyal while slowly vanishing, soothing with meds, sometimes alc But nothingContinue reading “A Medical Provider’s prayer of despair”

Becoming… I love the word “becoming”- it includes the word “be”, which is a holy word as the God of Jewish/Christian history introduces as “I am”. “Being” means “not doing”. “Being” means “not having”. “Being” is an awesome experience of the “here and now”. “Coming” means “movement from the future”. “Coming” means “something arrives andContinue reading “Becoming…”

My ancestor Dorothea Erdmuth von Zinzendorf died at the age of 56. She had shortly before lost her 24 year old son Christian after before losing 5 children all in infancy. Now her daughter Benigna was the only child left. Her husband had been travelling on different mission trips for many years without much communicationContinue reading “My Ancestor…”

“Put yourself on the wish list” the advertisers say on New Year’s Eve, hoping I would buy a new car perhaps. What do I wish for myself this year? I only want one thing: “I want to be fully present.” Present to feel my emotions and then let them go. Present to smell and taste.Continue reading “Presence…”

The back pillow that grounds me, holds me, supports me – a symbol for the invisible strength that is available to me every day. Interwoven – my inner strength and the outer strength, flowing toward me like soundwaves – arriving in my heart as reminder that I am not alone. I am part of allContinue reading “Strength and Grounding”